Saturday, November 08, 2008
I like talking to my uncle. He's like very supportive and stuff. He has a son who's doing the A's now too, and he was like saying his son is like slacking at home and not studying for A's or sth. But anw, he was saying that it's ok if you don't do well for A's, but the least you must do is to work hard for it. The results aint as impt compared to the process. If you really still don't do well for it, at least you know you have put in the effort and you can look for other alternatives or another path to take, such as going to the poly. And not just give up when we feel hope is dim.
Anw, at this pt my dad said something that's really discouraging, at least it is to me. He said that he had already advised me to go to a poly 'cos I'm.. wells, at as clever/my brain isn't as agile my bro's (don't know if ya can use it this way..). Hmms.. I must say I was very sad when I said that, although it wasn't the first time. Why must they compare me with my brother and use him as a benchmark for how intelligent I am. I don't deny that my brother is clever, just that he doesn't work hard enough (at least I feel it was the case.. Im not too sure abt the present, but yeah). But can't my parents be a lil' wee bit more encouraging? I'm someone who needs lots of encouragement and affirmation, not people to pour cold water on what I'm doing or achieving. I can't understand why they have to tell me I'm like the least intelligent of us siblings.
Okay, back to my uncle. He was telling me that designing is a viable route I can take, since I don't have that much interest in science. Hmms, I dont know if I'm creative enough for that, but that was option I toyed with in the past. I dont min designing, just that I feel I don't have enough creative juices in me. And there's the psychology and health sciences.
Just feel happier talking to my uncle about such stuff compared to my parents. It's like they don't understand how I think, how and what kinda person I am, how I feel. He's really like much more encouraging than my parents, I feel.
And he talked to me about wushu and taichi last time~ He used to do taichi when he was much younger, but not anymore. He told me about the people, the time when he was still practising taichi, between chen-shi and yang-shi taichi and stuff like that. (eh, I forgot if it's yang shi, but i know there's chen-shi!) But anw, he was kinda surprised when I told him I was doing 1st International Changquan ( like everyone else..) 'cos he was expecting something like nanquan. Haha. But yeah. Anw, I did a horrible job at it.
So, I'm going back to try getting some econ phy and chem stuff through that thick skull of mine.
It just seems funny that I'm back to blogging in the midst of my exams.
It must be the stress.
**amoi** XD
3:04 PM
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
To go for your dreams
Or be realistic?
I think they cant co-exist
At least for me...
Why do I feel as if I'm living in a world where dreams and interest don't count?
That practicality comes first.
Like they say.. "喜欢不能当饭吃"
But is pursuing something which one doesn't have any interest in makes one happy?
Life is short...
Shouldn't we be doing stuff that makes us happy?
Will I regret in the future
joining in the mad race,
For something that I hold no interest in?
My reply would be a Yes.
Aren't we told to pursue our dreams
To not have any regrets
But ain't we not told too,
That we have to be practical
I'll gladly go for the former
But apparently my mom has an inclination towards the latter
Everything just makes life seem so tiring
I will not betray myself
I hope.
**amoi** XD
8:50 PM
