Tuesday, May 27, 2008
小胖仔 died today.
**amoi** XD
2:59 PM
Monday, May 26, 2008
Loneliness is relative;
There is no benchmark upon which one can measure it
It's a feeling experienced by all humans - some more, some less
Some are at ease, while others are not
Eventually, it all boils down to how one perceives things
A glass, half-filled or half-empty
Optimism or Pessimism
And it's all one's choice,
to choose which to believe in
Regardless of where one is,
What one is feeling,
There are bound to be others who feel the same way
Albeit under different circumstances
So now,
Why do some feel as if they're alone?
That only those experiencing the same thing,
Under the same situation,
Then can they feel the same way
In the same magnitude
Though there can be no such measurements
It is but a feeling
Degree of which is set by oneself
To succumb or to hold strong?
It's all in the mind
But easier said than done
**amoi** XD
1:03 AM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
They can somtimes be so discouraging...
Although it's a fact that my brain isn't as advanced as my siblings, and I'm not as clever as them, I just don't like it when they say it out loud.
I think I'm quite a competitive person and I don't like to lose to others.. and it applies too in the area of brains. I don't like it that I'm not as clever as them, or even more intelligent than them. I don't like the fact that I'm slow.. And I find it even harder to stomach when others have to say it out.
Maybe it's inferiority.. I don't know.. I just don't like it.
To ask me how confident I am of doing well for A's.. To tell me now that I should've gone to poly..
And how timely..
When I'm going to take the A's this year..
I'm filled with trepidation for A's.. How I wish I can escape from it; I'm fond of escapism.
I'm scared of failure. I cannot and do not want to fail.. yet I feel that I'm not capable of handling such brain-taxing work; I'm not bright enough to deal with it.
Arians need affirmation
Please tell me so in all its sincerity..
**amoi** XD
7:40 PM
Monday, May 05, 2008
I did a good deed today~ wahaha! Was walking to the bus-stop in the morning when I found this wallet. Searched the wallet and found this reccepit for payment of course fees from this tuition centre. Actually I was deliberating whether to throw it back onto the ground 'cos I haven got the time to pass it to my dad or sth.. Haha. That was quite an evil thought. So anw, decided to keep it first then return it after school. And I was nearly late for school as a result! Omg. Did the 100m sprint and managed to get to the class line just before the 2nd bell rang. Had a super hard time finding the tuition centre la! Luckily it's quite a well-known centre.
Anw, school was alright except for the college day part! omg la.. Super waste of time to sit for 5 hrs watching others get the various awards. But, en said he submitted my name for lion dance on that day, so I'm not very sure whet I have to attend college day or not. My PDG tutor is gonna think I'm finding all kinds of excuses not to go, which is actually whaat I was doing during civics class today. Haha. But I didn't tell en to put my name in after my tutor asked ok.. I merely msged him and ask and fervently hoping that he did submit my name while waiting for this reply =X
**amoi** XD
8:08 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Hmms.. I was asked if I'm happy. Wells, actually I don't really know whether I am or not. There isn't much thing that I'm displeased abt except maybe my studies, but I just don't feel like I'm truly happy.
Maybe it's because I feel that my life has no purpose..
But I don't know..
It just feels like something's lacking.. missing
I went to look at the posts when I first started having a blog. I think I've changed.. I don't know whether it's a big change or is it more subtle, but I know I've changed. Esp. in the way I see things..
Sometimes she feels as if she's living under a facade of smiles..
Sometimes she feels as if no one truly understands her
And maybe it's true
Beneath that smile, the heart may be wrenched
But no one will know
Because she doesn't show it
Because she doesn't want others to see it
**amoi** XD
7:38 PM
