Thursday, April 19, 2007
Hmms.. Wushu comp is finally over, but now that it's over, there's like nothing to look forward to. I mean.. ok, before comp I was getting tired of all those trainings and not being able to improve, and stressed about all those homework piling up and the impending comp. but now that's it's over, there's sorta something missing. And I'm so not looking forward to the new training regime. I think I'll die terribly.
I cried on one of the days during comp can? That was super maluating lar. I hate letting people see me cry. I din intend to cry but I looked up and saw Von and tears just started flowing. And before that Daryl was like saying divide the missing amount among the AJWushu peeps, and that got me really guilty. I mean it ain't their fault and they don't have to pay a cent lar.. Anyway, I wasn't crying over the lost money lar.. That's kinda pathetic can. I think it's all the stress piling up and maybe a little cos I failed in my responsibility. I mean it's not that hard a job and yet I screwed it up, so yeah. And all the teachers are chasing me for homework and my Chem teacher just made me ultra pissed to the extent that tears of anger nearly squeeze their way out of my eyes. But that ain't very difficult lar... I cry easily. Like, really really easily.. I'm not strong-willed or what like other people tend to think I am, or maybe, I seem to be. So people, please don't make me cry.. haha. =X
Told my maths teacher during tutorial that I didn't do her homework 'cos was busy with comp. , but now it's all over. And she was like saying.. So you'll do all your future tutorials? Can I say no? Haha. So yeah.. I wish there's a mugger-making machine lar. I'll definitely buy it and transform myself into a mugger.
Hafta go do my tutorials now~
**amoi** XD
4:24 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Okay, I didn't do anything constructive during the weekend. Quite pissed actually. Just went for piano today without practising and it was total crap. Tons of homework undone and competition starts tomorrow, which means I'll most probably not be doing any work at all for the coming week. And, this sucks big time 'cos I'm already lagging. Actually, I prefer skipping stewpig lectures and do my homework instead 'cos some lectures just allow me to embrace the warmth and comfort of the sleeping god easily. They're a good way to treat insomnia. It's kinda hard not to fall into a deep slumber when the teachers are singing such melodious lullabies. Ok, I admit some teachers are good, like the current Physics lecturer, but I can't say the same for the Maths, Chem and Econs teachers. Anywa, I think we're gonna have another lecturer for Chem 'cos they just finished Chemical Energetics. I don't wish for a good one, but I hope the next lecturer is not too bad so that Chemistry lectures can get a tad more interesting.
Competition's starting tomorrow and I'll be competing on Tues and Thurs. Actually I think both are kinda gone cases, but everyone's like asking me to have some confidence and go out there and do my best. I guess I don't have any other choices 'cos no matter what, I'll still have to get down there and do my taolu. I try not to think too negatively lar.. Haha.
**amoi** XD
10:32 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
Skipped PW lecture and here I am, in the library trying to get some work down but the computer proved to be too tempting for me. My computer is down again so it's kinda sad I think.. All my songs and pictures.. Sadded.
Saturday's wushu training and performance were a total screw-up for me. I don't know what's wrong with me on that day but I kept forgetting my taolu. HAix.. It was so maluating. I don't wanna join in the competition anymore.. There's like the mental stress and stuff.. And for the team event, I'm scared I do wrongly or worse, forget my taolu. That'll be like hai dao the whole team. I don't know why
I wanted to compete so much last time.. It isn't that good or nice or whatever..
I think I'm becoming more and more like a loner.. Some days, I just don't wanna talk at all. The weird thing is, sometimes I don't even know why I don't wanna talk. Actually, it's kinda nice being by yourself.. It allows you space to think about lots of stuff.
I like banging on the piano more and more these days.. Nevermind that I can't play very well..
**amoi** XD
12:07 PM
