NE Day Friday, October 27, 2006

We had NE day yesterday and before we left the school for the excursion, we had this talk and Q&A session on national securities or something along that line. I thought the guy who hosted (or whatever shit word) the Q&A session was sorta sarcastic and all, although the way he spoke was nice larh. Anyway, Katarina said the younger officer looked familiar, but I don't know. Maybe he's one of the officers we met at the BBQ.. I dunno.

After that, we got on the bus and went to the Police Heritage Centre. I think the place is damn cool can! I wanna work there!!! Haha. THe place is interesting! Next, we went to the Sikh temple. Then, it was back to school. We didn't get to go to the Bright Hill one 'cos we were delayed and there wasn't enough time to go anymore.

Back in school, Pocky gave us lil hearts that she made and then Jesslyn gave us this personalised paper where we can write messages for each other on it. I wrote wrongly on Jia Liang's paper lar! I wrote the message for Ying Han on Jia Liang's and I didn't realise it until Vivian told me. Haha. Super retarded.It was fun and wells.. sorta sad maybe? That stewpig YingHan keept talking about me being retained and all. Sigh. Read all the messages on it already... I'll miss 01/06 next year! ='( Love them lotsa~ And I was being supremely stewpig larh. I was like going around asking who has yet to write on mine and then! Ping asked me whether I've counted myself in or not. And I haven't. Super toot. Haha. And must thank the wushu peeps for waiting for me while I went around collecting messages and writing for others. Haha.

Went to The Cathay with Daryl BJ, Wilson, Teng and Cheong Siong with the intention to watch Sinking of Japan, but alas! The next show only starts at 7+ and it's too late for Daryl, so we settled for The Guardian. The show is nice~ About the U.S Coast guards, their missons and trainings, etc. Nice to watch. I think these people (police, doctors, paramedics, navy, army..etc), basically those who's primary aim/job is to save lives, are super cool! I want to be one too! They don't run away in the face of danger and instead, run to it to save the lives of others, more often than not, the lives of total strangers. So wei da!!! I'm such a coward lar.. I think I'll run away if there's danger or anything and won't go and help other ppl.. save my own skin. So much for Non Mihi Solum. Why am I so humji.. Damn. Anyway, while watching the show, I was super hungry lar!! I thought I won't be ale to survive the whole show. haha. Then, I needed the loo urgently.. Like WTH! Then I was like fidgeting in my seat and all. Couldn't tahan in the end and chiong-ed out during an exciting part. Luckily didn't miss much. Haha. So sad larh.. The Randall died. He was a super courageous guy and all. He gave up his life to save his student/colleague lar. The wire was breaking and he knew it couldn't withstand the weight of both of them, so he decided to give up his life to save GoldFish and freed himself and drop back into the raging sea. So sad.. People.. you all should go and watch it~

**amoi** XD

9:49 AM

Kbox-ing Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Met Selene and Jacq at Plaza Sing before making our way to Paradiz Plaza's Kbox. We were there singing for like 8 hours? haha. Vivian joined us later on and damn larh.. Selene and Vivian sing very well larh, expecially Selene. She can change her voice like guy's/girls/high/low/etc., like it's small case only.. Super hao ting la! Put the video up after i get it from Jacq. She should go and join some competition! Then poor me was like a crow cawing amongst the.. hmms.. canaries? or whichever bird that sing nice one larh. =x So maluating one. I'm so monotonous. =( Anyway, we discoverd this place at the Dhoby Xchange where all the gamers from Asiasoft games can sit together and play. Suepr cool! But the gamers there are like so pro? They play audition with 8keys and chance. Like.. so difficult!

Speaking of Audition, I was playing this grp choreo then I think my com lag or sth, the 46 wasn't the same as the others. Then there's this girl who kept telling me it's 46 and like saying in this exasperated tone like I'm some dumbass who can't understand English. I told her a zillion times that I'm doing 46 but it isn't showing the same moves as the rest, but she was like "no.. you're not" (something along that line larh..) Super pissed off larh! Then I just stopped playing the game and told her I ain't lvl 10 for nothing.. She's just lvl 6 lar. And the fact that she doesn't know this problem can exist shows that she's really really a ~~noob~~ beginner.

Okay, I should be more empathetic.. Everyone needs time to learn.

**amoi** XD

11:51 PM

Slides~ Saturday, October 21, 2006

Create Your Own!

Create Your Own!
Wushu peeps~

**amoi** XD

1:40 PM

hmms.
Okay, I cried. I was visitng the blogs of my friends and I saw the posts they made. It just brought back wonderful memories of the year spent with them and it just made me feel really sad knowing that I can't be in the same class as them next year, to join in the fun, the joy, just doing stuff together and laughing and teasing each other.

Their concern for me; seeing them worrying about me, comforting me, just really made me feel like cring. it's sorta like I've let them down or something. I don't know what's the correct word to use to describe what I'm feeling.

I'm crying not because of the fact I'm retained, but that I've let those that I care about down.

amoi XD

12:30 PM

Fate.
I was all anxious and stuff in school yesterday, awaiting my fate. But they were still discussing it even when I left the school with the wushu people to J8. It was fun there larhz.. And Deathnote was quite good. I like "L" or "Ryuzaki" as he call himself. He's cute. Haha. So anyway, I didn't receive any news from my PDG tutor even though the rest of the people in my class have received. My PDG tutor replied me while I was on the train home that I've been retained. Wells, I took it better than I expected. I wasn't feeling really sad or anything. I felt.. nothing? Like I'm numbed or sth. I think it's 'cos I've sorta convinced myself of it before the news came although I was feeling nervous and stuff before it. Maybe I wanted to get it ovcer and done with. maybe I've sealed up my emotions. I don't know. Anyway, lotsa thanks to the people who msged me and ask me to cheer up and stuff. Thanks alot! I guess I'll be alright. hugZ

amoi XD

10:01 AM

Sad Life Thursday, October 19, 2006

Actually wanted to blog about some stuff that happened in shcool today, but can't remember them now because I'm feeling damn shitty now. Ms Toh called Mer and asked her whether she wanna promote and stuff like that but she didn't call me at all larh. Which means the other teachers probably wrote some negative comments about me and that I'll most probably be retained lar. Sucks big time. Damn. I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow. I think I'll cry. Although I know I'll be retained, but to really hear/see for myself that it's confirmed will hurt even more, yeah? I don't know how I'm going to survive tomorrow. I'm not even sure if I want to go watch movie and celebrate Hong Chia's birthday with the rest of the wushu people tomorrow. I don't know if I'll be motionally stable yeah? I so don't wanna cry in school..

I don't wanna go to school tmr.

**amoi** XD

10:38 PM

Farewell Assembly Monday, October 16, 2006

This is the video of the dance we did~ The one with the worst timing is me lar.. =P

**amoi** XD

10:50 PM

Life of a retainee.. hope not
Got back my Physics, Mathematics and GP papers today. Was darned demoralized and sad and all when I received the first paper, which was Physics. I was expecting it to scrape a pass because I thought it was the easiest paper compared to Chemistry and mathematics. So, I was super sad when I saw that I had only managed to get an S, and a low one at that. If I can’t pass my Physics, I can forget about passing my mathematics or/and chemistry. I wanted to cry actually, but I was holding back my tears ‘cos I don’t wanna anyone see me crying, especially in school. And so, I started reading a book to take my mind off.

During break, I sorta got over it a little but when Maths came, my heart was totally shattered. Like what the shit. Got a low U, and so I took up my book again to read it and threw the paper on the chair beside me. I wanted so much to go home and cry at that moment but I had to try my very best not let my tears drop. I had also to stay back in school until quite late for Kickboxing too. Heard from others that quite a few in my class cried.

GP soothed me a little ‘cos I passed it although not fantastically well. Got 26 for the essay which wasn’t really good, but I’m quite happy at my compre marks ‘cos I’ve never passed a compre this year before. Got 29.5/50 with the highest in my class being 32 or 33 by HuiPing. That’s the first subject that I’ve passed, but it’s a H1 subject which means it’s just like a S grade when converted to a H2 subj. So, I still don’t have a H2 pass and I need 2 to be promoted. With the grades for Physics and Mathematics already known, I have only 1 H2 subject left, which is Chemistry, one that is my weakest subject and nearly impossible for me to pass at this stage and even if I did, it would only be 1 H2 pass which isn’t enough.

With all that’s said, I’ll be retained according to my academic results, but I’m keeping my fingers crossed for either a conditional promotion or a unconditional one. But I still want to compete in the wushu competition next year.

amoi XD

10:27 PM

Hmms.. Sunday, October 15, 2006

Had Farewell Assembly for the J2s on Friday morning. Woke up darn early at 3+ 'cos I couldn't sleep and kept thinking abt the dance steps. The dance turned out okay for me because I still couldn't catch the timing and stuff and got some stuff wrong (damn maluating..) but I wasn't really scared once on the stage. Maybe it's 'cos of the dance performances and competition in secondary school bah.. Anyway, met up with teh wushu people after school to do up the noticeboard. Arthur Lim called me during school to ask me to call the wushu peeps to do the noticeboard by the end of the day larh! Was sorta shocked when he said it's him on the other end of the call. I was like how'd he know my number and cca and stuff. Think it's Alex Lim who gave him the number or sth? Don't know.. Haha. I think I was kinda a little pissed when I was doing the noticeboard with the rest of the girls. The guys were just like sitting down there and chatting away and stuff. They could've just gone home since they ain't doing anything. Haha. Hmms.. Actually I think I wasn't pissed with them not doing anything. I was just pissed if anything were to go wrong or sth like that. Hard to say what I was actually feeling. Haha. The noticeboard is super nice k!! Must go see~ Wushu people are very artistic and creative de!=D After that, I had to go to Selene's pace to do OP and so I took bus 86 with Yvonne to Sengkang. We alighted at the same stop la! Haha. Went to eat with Selene and Shirlynn before going to Selene's place, and while walking back, I saw this guy at the busstop who looked very familiar.. As in he either looks like someone I know, or an artiste or sth. But just couldn't think of anyone. Haha. Actually, the rest of my PW group had more or less completed the powerpoint, so there wasn't much for me to do. Haha. Stayed over at Selene's place and her dad drove us to school the next day for Open House.

Open house was so-so. I didn't have my wushu pants with me and so i couldn't do alot of things with the wushu people lar! So sad de.. Very long nvr train for wushu le.. Sorta missing it a little. Haha. =x Daryl(CS)'s pants dropped in the hall lar! So tooty larh! Haha. He was doing the ce kong fan then when he landed, his pants dropped. HAHAHA. Also, the Wild Cats' Motion had to perform twice for the open house and the first one was a total flop for me. I got alot of timings wrong and I forgot the steps. Damn malu-ed. Haha. The second time was better though. Missed the volleyball exhibition match but luckily not the basketball one. It was fun watching them play! I missed playing basketball and captain's ball/netball!. Table-tennis too! Haha. Secondary school life again.. Anyway, after the open house ended, we rotted in the wuhsu room for some time before meeting Olivia to celebrate her's and her sis's birthday. I climbed up this thing at the playground then when jiao lian came, he said he though I was a guy from afar. And to add salt to wound, a while later, I was looking at this little girl who was trying to climb up to where I was, and I hear her mom said,"eh.. wait for the KORKOR to come down first then climb up..." !!!!! What the toot! What korkor larhz! Is JieJie k! When I hear it, I was like o.0 then I turned around to look at the mom. She saw me and then she gave those kinda oh-shit-I-said-sth-wrongly kind of look. Haha. I looked at her for a while before climbing down from the side so the girl could climb up. Haha. We also played this Zhong Ji Mi Ma game and Jiao Lian was so so so so so humji lar! We dared him to do lotsa stuff when he lost the game and he didn't want to and gave lotsa excuses lar! Toot larh. Our impression of him is totally spoilt. Bleahhs.

Just remembered... They say the way I laugh is totally er xin. Haha. I think the way I laugh changed recently. It sounded funny to me too. Haha. Don't know why it changed though..

Today had piano in the morning and I was super late. I didn't practise the peiece we aere supposed to show the teacher today too. My class only left with 3 people, so the teacher said he's pushing us a little so that we learn faster, catch up with the next class and transfer there. Fees also more expensive le.. Anyway, after that Melissa and I walked around and tried on lots of clothes larh! Saw this top at Flesh Imp which I quite like. It's tight-fitting but doesn't look too funny on me. Haha. I normally can't wear tight-fitting one de. Haha. And I bought 2 long sleeve de shirts today~ They are the same design but different colour 'cos I couldn't decide which one to buy. Think my mom gonna scold me if she knows about it. Haha. Bought 2 comic books too. Super broke now larh.. I'm like keep withdrawing money but not depositing at all. So shitty. the glasses and bags will have to wait. Think I'll try to get my mom to buy me the top instead. I like it! Haha.

At my grandma's place now. There's only the adults here so I'm like the only one from the younger generation. Going off to play audition now~

**amoi** XD

5:04 PM

Lion Dance! Saturday, October 07, 2006

Today is the first time I went around performing with a lion dance troupe, as in they were the ones performing and I was the slacker 'cos I didn't know anything larh. Haha. I though it was super fun!

Had to wake up at 5+ in the morning to prepare to go to Kovan to meet the rest so that I can reach there at 0720. In the end, my dad drove me there as he was going to bring my brother back to his army. I would have been late if he hadn't drove me there. haha. Can't get rid of my bad habit of being late~

Went to Jiao Lian's palce to change to the lion dance outfit and stuff, and then we were off~ Went to someplace in Snegkang or Hougang first and they did the lion dance thing. Daryl, Wilson and KangRui were the shi1 wei3, and it was quite easy to differentiate them from the other 2 more experienced shi1 wei3 'cos the three of them didn't shake and move their butt like the other two. =P Haha. But they improved in the subsequent "performances" or whatever you call that. We were there for quite some time before we went off. Talked some crap with Jiao Lian while waiting. Haha

Followed around to some other places and stuff and then at our last stop, this guy called Jason or sth, who he was the Shi1 Tou2 was doing the lion dance, and then! HIS PANTS DROPPED!! LOL! We were outside the temple so we didn't actually see his pants drop but Coach told us larh. He was like saying the guy's underwear is dark grey and then everyone in front of them saw it larh! So funny lor. Haha.

After that, we went back to the first place we went to, to have lunch. Then, it was back to Coach's place. On the way back, the Koon San guys were trying to tie this guy up larh! It looked like they were fighting or something 'cos the rest were trying to pin the guys down and then the guy was like kicking and struggling like mad. And, imagine this happening on a moving lorry! Saw this driver from a car beside shaking her head while looking at us larh! Haha.

Then, went to Mac's and crapped with Coach and the Wushu peeps before going to Bel's place to meet the W.A. Stayed for a while only 'cos they were going to leave and then I told Jia Fang all the wushu stuff on the way back from to Khatib from Serangoon. JIAO LIAN SUANNED ME ALOT TODAY!!! What the toot!! Like more than five times larh. Keep saying I fat! *(^$#^&&*())_ And I very demure de k!! Wushu peeps always suan me de!! BOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!! But! I still love the wushu peeps!!! Haha!! I think I'll miss wushu trainings after A's larh. I want to continue training wushu lehz.. But I don't know where to go to train.. And like how do I train larh.. Who to teach me and stuff.

I'm so looking forward to wushu chalet!!! Although it's at Aloha Changi larh.. I scared. Haha.

**amoi** XD

9:04 PM

Promos... a killer Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Promos is almost over and I'm being killed up down left right centre by it. Still have Chem paper tomorrow but I'm feeling a little sian by it. I'll most probably get retained unless they moderate like siao and some miracle happens to allow my physics and chemistry to pass. Maths today was like totally crap larh. Worst thing that can happen on a math exam day - I forgot to bring both my Graphic Calculator and scientific calculator. Like... WTF lar! I left it on the table and forgot to pack them into my bag. In the end Serena helped me to borrow from a J2 who's a class mate of her friend. Thank You Wen Ting!! I think that was a presage to the coming disaster. (I always anyhow use words de.. dont =P) I couldn't complete even ONE question. Like how shitty can it get. Was writing crap on the papers and I think the teacher marking my script will be damn happy 'cos there's nothing there for her/him to mark.

GP and Physics were crap too. I personally feel that Econs was alright, although I may not do too well for it larh. Couldn't finish both the DRQ and the essay, but I think it'll be better than my mid-year. Actually it was like regurgitation of the answers to other questions that Mrs Low gave us to do. And the most important thing is to DEFINE and explain the terms.

Actually, I can just give up studying Chem now since there's no hope that I can promote with the grades I'm going to get. But if don't study, I'll feel uneasy. Sigh. Guess I'm still grabbing on to the hope that I'll miraculously get promoted to be a J2 in 2007.

That's all for now.

**amoi** XD

2:47 PM

NE Day Friday, October 27, 2006

Kbox-ing Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Slides~ Saturday, October 21, 2006

Sad Life Thursday, October 19, 2006

Farewell Assembly Monday, October 16, 2006

Hmms.. Sunday, October 15, 2006

Lion Dance! Saturday, October 07, 2006

Promos... a killer Wednesday, October 04, 2006

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